Our (LOOOCKDOWN) Stories
Nina Worsley –YOung Company
What’s To Come? post-lockdown
What’s to Come? by: nina Worsley
There were mere days in between it all. What I looked at from inside my screen, a headline or two in the midst of my day, crept into my home, my world, without warning. Before I knew it, doors were closed, people’s backs were turned, churches were empty.
I remember how excited I was to do “Children of Eden” and play Yonah, a lead character. I was excited for myself but more so for all the new faces I saw. Then day by day, our numbers decreased and at the drop of a hat, everything stopped. I stood in the center of it all wondering what the heck I was supposed to do next. I’ve never been in a situation where I felt like I was at odds with everyone. There were things I couldn’t say, beliefs I couldn’t speak on. I woke up one day and it seemed like 90% of the people in my country decided I was their enemy. Tensions in my family continued growing thicker with time and all I could do was…. laugh everything off. And, I thought that meant it wouldn’t change me. Turns out, I couldn’t have been more wrong. For months on end, I had to decide in every single moment how I was going to grow from this. I had to decide to keep checking up on people who I so desperately wanted to see. I had to keep reminding myself that people act differently when they feel like they are alone. I had to understand that despite anyone’s views on the situation, the one thing that was true from the beginning and is still true today, is that God is working.
I do not know what will come from this. I do not know when we return to “normal” or whose definition of normal will be used. Nevertheless, my prayer is that we will all remember that fear plays a role in our lives, but it cannot control our actions. When Jesus said that a man cannot be the slave of two masters, He meant it. We cannot be Soldiers of Christ and still turn our backs on our neighbors. We cannot win a battle by speaking of how much stronger our enemies are. This is no more than I, myself, have been guilty of doing. Remembering this is our only option if we do not want to be forever jarred by recent events. If there is a lesson to be learned, a story to be shared, a hand to be held, let it be in the spirit of this quote from Saint Joan of Arc, a teenage girl who lived and died for her country and her Faith: “When God fights, it’s of small consequence whether the hand that holds the sword is big or little.”